Goodbye, twenty one.

"Well, its good to hear your voice, I hope your doing fine. And if you ever wonder, I'm lonely here tonight" that lyric makes me can't stop crying omg:(

 I still feel the same tightness. I know that eventually I will be so sad, I'm trying to avoid tears as hard as I could. But, you know, I was woman the most not stronger hold grief. You know the story about that guy, right? I always told you about him. How it feel, how strong my love of getting pounce, and how his great smile can be so affirming my heart steps.

You certainly know how deep my feelings to him. I never thought of separation over the years, but it turns out that so didn't want to think about eventually forced into my brain. Me and him no longer as it used to. Greeting is no longer as warm as before, no longer as sweet as first smile, and his laugh no longer as crisp first. I don't know what kind of changes that make it so different.

Too selfish and too afraid to say. I can't blame anybody. Is not the love is never wrong? What I thought was right is not necessarily right in his eyes. What I think the right path is not necessarily the right path in his eyes. Be happy now. Too difficult for me to understand his way of thinking. Each I saw him recently, I tried to convince myself; I also had to happy to see you happy. Indeed, sincere love is seeing people happy even though he never made ​​me only one. I can't hold you away. In fact, when you choose to spend your happiness with others, and then you let me alone.

I realized how beautiful experience this and how lucky I am to have someone that makes goodbye so difficult. Thanks God, I found a good in a goodbye.