I still feel the same tightness. I almost don't know that eventually I will be so sad, I'm trying to avoid tears as hard as I could. But, you know, I was woman the most not stronger hold grief. Sometimes I see a boy who looks like you, and my heart stops beating for a split second. Sometimes I hear laugh that sound like yours, and I can't help but shake my head and smile. If i've learned one thing after all these years, life was better with you here.
You have hurt me, you're hurt me, you will hurt me. There have been so many heartaches because of you, so many night spent crying on my cold bedroom floor because of you.
Does anyone know how it feels to love someone else as sick as what? Tired of crying all night, until the headache because of too many tears coming out. Until reddened eyes, pillow soaked with tears, I think I wanted to yell at the whole world, to ask God why all of this just happened to me? Why do I always feel this, God? I think I shouts of anger at yourself, that taste like "I never good enough". Can't breath because my nose blocked. Salt in my mouth Because of all tears. Finding ways for attention, trying so hard to get attention. But like no one cares of losing me, and nothing I do is working. Have you ever been in one of those moods where you just want to grab everything and rip it from the walls and break everything because you feel broken and you want to scream and kick and cry too much because nothing feels alright and it's all wrong and wrong, and you don't feel right and I don't know anymore. Ok goodbye 7!
